Thanks Muddle, It's just that sometimes I feel like my patience is wearing thin. Then I start to resent the fact that he betrayed me and question my sanity in trying to save my M. Why would I try so hard to be with someone who wants to be with someone else?
I know that things between us will NEVER be the same. OW will always be an elephant in the room. She will always represent something to me and probably to my H as well. I don't think that I will ever fully forgive my H, what he did hurt me more than words can express. In time, I guess that hurt will subside and I will be able to let go of it and move on but I sure don't feel like my H truly loves me. I feel like he settled for me; like since he can't leave his life and kids he is stuck with me and I can't help feeling like we are going to coexist in a loveless marriage forever.
