Ok, I know I shouldn't have but I looked online and saw that he talked to someone this morning for about 20 minutes. Ughh!!!!!! I pushed him right back to her.
I tried calling him but no answer. I called again just now and he answered but sounded cold and distant. I apologized for yelling and said the last thing I want to do is push you farther away. He said don't worry about it, he didn't want to see that band and should have been more clear about it. I told him to me it didn't really matter what band was playing it was the fact that we were alone doing something together. He said he is just really tired and crabby today.
I also know I probably shouldn't have, but I asked him if he was going out after work. He said he was going to go rollerblading. I then reminded him that I have an interview at 5:00. (Wish me luck by the way, I really need to get out of here and get a life away from the madness) Who knows if he is really rollerblading, or going to talk to HER. I guess I cannot control that. I am just so upset at myself. I am selfish and immature and never think before I speak. I feel like I have backslid back so far that I am sinking in quiksand and cannot get out
