Well today is D day...last night she unhappily told me she is staying but the final decision is tonight and she may still change her mind. She does not want to stay. She told me "you win" like I should be proud of myself or something...she is very angry with me. Now comes the very hard part of trying to really win...to win her back into my life...to win back her feelings for me and for her to really want to stay in the marriage.
She is going to be very depressed for the next month...she told me if she does stay she just wants to be locked in her room and cry. This is going to be very hard but I realize if she does stay I need to back totally off and give her all of the space she needs. It is like now all of the hard work really begins. I am far from out of the woods...I feel like I am just journeying deeper into the unknown.
"Friendship is like peeing your pants: everyone can see it, but only you can feel the true warmth."
