SRT, don't fall for the "if only you had..." stuff. It is complete nonsense to blame you for her immoral actions. You are not her keeper here. You were making decisions in a game that you didn't even know the rules to (and never wanted to play in the first place) and for her to dump responsibility on you is WRONG! She's trying to offload her guilt, so don't buy in. What you did was out of love and a respect for your R, what she did was to destroy those things, end of story.
