It is basically a month today. Everything is still up in the air. Really I feel a lot calmer now that I am forcing the decision to be made. I just know myself...there is no way I was going to live in this situation as is...I could not turn my back on her going out at F-ing the other man whenever she pleased. This month has been hell and I could never see it getting easier...if anything it was going to get harder because every time she went to see him it was making me angrier. It was not going to stop on its own anytime soon...I have a feeling it would have went on for a year or longer.
If she leaves who knows eventually we may get back together...I would not write anything off. I still want to be close to her and friends as we have our son to think about. Maybe after she ran wild for a year or so she would be ready to come back but after that time I might not want her back...just don't know.
Tonight she wants to stay...but I know that will change a dozen times before Thursday.
"Friendship is like peeing your pants: everyone can see it, but only you can feel the true warmth."
