Things took a big shift last night. I decided I could not sit idly by and let my wife continue the PA with OM. We had just had a nice couple of days because basically she was forced to be home cause her MIL was in town. I do not feel like I am strong enough to sit back and let this all happen and try to win her back slowly.

So basically I put it all on the line last night and said she needs to make some choices. She either needs to end her relationship with OM or lets just move towards separation. We had some very heated discussions and at the end of the night we had decided to separate. This kind of devastated me but I planned to help her as much as possible. I guess I was accepting of our impending separation by the end of the night. She obviously wants to be with OM more than me.

This morning when we woke up she changed her mind and said she would end it with OM...she wants to give MC a try and see if we get anywhere. This was good news but came as a real shock to me.

I did not want to force this to happen because I knew there would be repercussions...right now she hates me...I disgust her...she is VERY angry. MC is going to be very tough...I have my doubts whether we can break through this. I have my doubts whether she can really end the A. I am really ready to work on the marriage but I know it is going to be very hard.

I did what I felt I had to do...time to see how it plays out.

"Friendship is like peeing your pants: everyone can see it, but only you can feel the true warmth."