Quote: The other option is to just keep on dbing and wait for it to burn itself out, and if it doesn't and turns back to a PA then do what you have to. It's a tough call.
Yep...these are the choices I am struggling with...do I turn my back on it and just work on myself and our relationship and hope it ends a natural death...or do I kill it. Not sure what to do...I know I WANT to end it...but that will set her and our R back in the short term...and may cause more long term resentment. Not sure which way I am leaning. She has been warmer the last week or so and has told me she is having feelings for me sometimes...I probably should just continue down the path of rebuilding our foundation before thinking about tearing down anything but it is difficult.
It really breaks my heart that she knows it tortures me each time she leaves yet she does not care...but then when she comes home she wants everything with me to be normal. What she really wants is the A to be a big secret again...she wants to have her cake and eat it too...the problem is the secret is out and it can never be the same. She is really in denial if she thinks this can work long term...and unfortunately I kind of bought into it initially because she was so distraught and actually some how managed to guilt me into giving in...
There have been positive signs...like her acknowledging she needs to see less of OM...and OM supposedly going out on a date with someone else. But she still is resolute that she wants to be friends with OM...and it is not like she is just seeing him in a group of her friends...she goes to his house and then they go out together...much too much like a couple for my liking.
Oh well...another day...just had a positive chat with her...still working on positives...
"Friendship is like peeing your pants: everyone can see it, but only you can feel the true warmth."
