whatisis...Thanks for the support...sorry to hear you are in the same situation tonight...

I am still having a rough night...MIL is here all week and I really need to pretend everything is just perfect...going to be very difficult...but I think I can do it...

I really feel like I need to get away to be alone for awhile...I can't be in this situation every day...I am considering moving out for awhile...I don't know if it is the right thing to do but I feel I need some time alone...I really need to think about things and be away from the wife for awhile...probably just a week and I would still visit but I need some seperation...I also want her to be alone so she can wonder where I am or just spend some time thinking about what she wants without me here...with me constantly around her I just do not feel I can think straight...I feel out of control...

This is where we stand...wife wants to work on marriage but what she really wants is to have total freedom. So she is willing to stay married and work on us but she wants to go out and do as she pleases. I think she would avoid physical affairs from this point forward but still wants to be friends with OM and see him when she pleases...really I think S3 and financial stability are what is holding her here...basically she is trying to have the best of both worlds and I don't think I can live like that...at least not for very long...I am kind of sick of being the door mat...I feel like I need to shock the situation a little. If she would give me primary custody of S3 I might consider just getting a D....I don't know...that is why I need to get away for awhile...I need space to think...

It is so difficult...I love my wife dearly...she is beautiful...I like her...I love her...my family loves her....but it is like I am a flippin good catch too...I make a lot of money...I am athletic...not bad looking...I could pretty much have my pick of women...and I could find a wife that loves me for who I am...yet I do not want to give up...just hate being in this situation...

lil drunk tonight...numbing the pain...so rambling a bit...

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