Well very depressed this morning...The A seems to be over but now we are back to where we were...limbo land...
Unfortunately I backslided last night and got her talking about our relationship and she said all of the same things...she feels nothing for me...she is empty...does not know how we could fix it. I pursued and pursued...mistake after mistake...I know I am driving her nuts. We didn't fight or anything but I am sure I looked pathetic.
I know I just need to GAL and start working on me. Just so hard. Not in a good place right now...very depressed. I need to pull back.
Did call my brother to see if he was doing anything this weekend...I know I need to get out this weekend without her and start moving on...kind of hopefully let her seek me out eventually instead of constantly smothering her. If that does not pan out I figure I will hit a boat and play a little all night poker...just to get away.
"Friendship is like peeing your pants: everyone can see it, but only you can feel the true warmth."
