Well we had a good sunday. I feel like we are starting to make some progress or at least getting to an emotional point where we can make progress. Sunday her friends and the OM told her they are still flipped out and they think I am going to attack them or something. They are kind of avoiding her and gossiping and not being very true to her. We spent Sunday with her GF and it all seemed easy and relaxing but after we left she found out her GF went gossiping to everyone. This kind of pissed her off and she came to me and told me how much she appreciates how I have acted the past few days and that she really loves that I am giving her a second chance and trusting her. Was nice to hear this and I feel like validating and trusting is really helping me make progress.

The thing is I am not really mad or feel vengeance for the OM or her friends. I know my wife is attractive and very charismatic...I expect other men to hit on her...I expect her to be the person who draws the line...she is the one I need to rely on and trust...any anger I have over the situation is mostly directed at her with a little left over for myself for letting our marriage get into such a poor state.

I realize we still have a lot of work to do on us but at least we are getting in a state where we can do some positive work. I am starting to feel a little better and not dwelling on the negative so much.

Still very difficult at times because I am still hurting and do feel betrayed but I realize if we are ever to have anything I need to forgive and get past things. The OM is still a problem for me even though she seems quite content and assurred they can just be friends again. They were friends for awhile and it had only recently blossomed into romance but it still worries me. I guess I am banking on the fact that the OM is young and who knows what he is really after...if he sees she just wants to be friends and that is the most he will ever get I suspect he not give her as much attention and will move on from the situation to work on his next conquest. I do think most men who have women as friends are mainly after one thing and if he can't get that he may not be such a good friend to her anymore. Oh well...one day at a time.

Talked to her this morning and she said she is cooking me a special dinner tonight...this is nice to hear and I appreciate it...she has not done that for awhile and I take it as a good sign.

Thanks for reading my little blog...gives me somewhere to vent...and think about things.

"Friendship is like peeing your pants: everyone can see it, but only you can feel the true warmth."