Some more info...I think I am a good father and a pretty good husband (though definitely need to improve more). I am generally very happy about our life and feel we had a bright future to look forward to. W definitely has some self esteem issues...grew up in a very religious stifling household and become very accustomed to lying to get what she wanted and is very good and hiding things. This is both our 2nd marriage and this is a repeat for both of us...she left her first husband (who was also very successful and is now in a stable marriage) because she was having an A. My first W left me once she finished all of her schooling and I have no doubt she had multiple affairs. The first Dv was not very hard as we had no kids, were both well off financially, the first W was a handful - depression, bipolar...frankly was glad to see her walk out even though I would have never ended it myself.
This will be much more difficult because I truly love and like my W...she is my best friend in the world. My family loves her. She is very fun and charismatic. A very beautiful person. We have a wonderful son. I really want to make this work and am really looking forward to marriage counseling and I am hoping the counselor recommends individual counseling for her or both of us for that matter to deal with some of our personal issues.
I just hope she lets down the barriers that she has constructed and gives me a second chance to make things right. I really can feel she is very angry and resentful of me and I am praying she has not totally given up. It is just really tearing me up as I never wanted to be in this situation again.
"Friendship is like peeing your pants: everyone can see it, but only you can feel the true warmth."
