Quote: If he is in this R with Cassie . . . then what's to say that I will not just be standing in vain Emily, you must be standing, walking, by faith alone. You have got to feed your faith and not your fear from this minute on. Emily, I have just spent the most blessed 3 hours with my husband. I didn't expect it and I sure didn't deserve it but you know what, I BELIEVED FOR IT. I never knew when I'd spend time with him, never knew when we might talk...I just believed. You have got to to reach that point. It is TIME for you to grow now. Not GO NOW. This is where the rubber meets the road Emily. This will be the single most important decision you ever make; to turn your back on what the world and its circumstances show you (like that he's choosing Cassie) and to walk by faith believing in that which you do not see, but God says He will restore. I really feel that he is trying to balance us both. That's seems to be the trick for him. When asked to choose between us . . . he chooses her. Well if that's the case then so be it. But I want to know so that I can pick up my peices and move on. You're going to pick up the pieces but you are going to have to step out of the boat on nothing but faith, Emily. God wants to see if you will trust Him and believe Him in spite of the storm. It's time to stop being a baby Christian. You're in a spiritual battle for your family. Your battle is not against flesh and blood (Cassie) it is against things you can't see. Your weapon is the Word of God. It's in your hand, like David held that slingshot. Are you going to use this weapon and take the giant down or drop it and run?
Emily, it is on a rare occasion lately that when I am posting to someone I KNOW that God is working through me as I type. I have not felt that way in a long time. It's like I feel one continuous chill the entire time I am typing. I felt that way when I typed the above post to you last night. You toss it aside carelessly if you want to but they were not just words from me.
Amy I know what He wants to me . . .
I understand that.
EVERYTHING lately has been going this way.
I pray about what to do and I recieve a sign (it's always to stand) . . . I go to church and the preacher is talking about vows . . .
JEESH.
I just CAN'T I've been going about this all wrong for too long.
I don't feel that Kevin is worth saving.
There are so many other who deserve it so much more than he.
He is nothing but a LYING CHEATING peice of crap.
HE chooses Cassie . . . so let HER stand for him.
I CANNOT call up the strength, NOT for him.
I have the strength to stand in faith that Kiya will be healthy. That she will live a LONG full life.
Her kidney problem will be fixed. Her hearing will clear up or she'll have a hearing aid. . . .
I know Kiya will OK.
It's going to be hard to watch them do the tests . . . but I know in the end it will about be fine.
Kiya is WORTH every ounce of my strength and being . . . . Kevin isn't.
Quote: Amy did you find this just for me or what? I know you posted it on your thread . . . but jeesh . .
Quote: Always take the high road. Especially at a moment you think you have nothing to lose by taking the other.
Because that's precisely when you will learn, too late, that there was much more to lose then you were ever willing to give.
I don't understand what the highroad is at this point though. . . .
I typed THAT to JT71 last night. I read it back to myself this morning and thought "good grief! that's some good stuff". Sometimes, I pull a rabbit out of my hat and last night I had a good night all the way around but I am just a vessel. The work is His, Emily. All I did so that He could use me again was get myself back in line with His Word, which I had begun to stray from with bitterness. But praise the Lord He is a not only a God of 2nd chances but also 3rd, 4th and 5th ones, too .
Get yourself in line, too.
By the way, that's not for you but I know the enemy is using it to make you think you need to quit standing.
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