Quote: I like a lot of that in your last post, Emily. Tell you what ... if you can go a month without talking to him or writing to us about how much you miss him, I'll send you $50. How about that?
I could probably manage a month of telling him to "piss off" (hopefully in a nicer way than that though. Starting today I have had zero contact. Day 1 almost over . . LOL)
BUT I KNOW I couldn't do it without coming here and venting that I miss him. Sorry . . . I can't take that deal . . because I already know I'll lose!
Yes Amy I did pay A LOT of attention to that last post.
What you said about me possibly being his ONLY linking factor . . . shook me A LOT.
This to be exact (I edited)
Quote: How sad that you think Kevin can be so lost that God can't reach him.
You are called to stand.
You may very well be the ONE PERSON that God wants to stand in the gap between heaven and hell and claim Kevin's salvation is imminent.
The unbelieving spouse is sanctified (MADE HOLY) by the believing spouse.
IT IS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY TO STAND ON BEHALF OF YOUR HUSBAND.
That's why I said that I wouldn't file nor would I sign anything. . . I would "keep my options open"
BUT let's face it . . . what I have been doing isn't working.
It's time to try a different way.
My only problem Amy, RB, Frank, and even Ali . . if you can answer is this:
If he is in this R with Cassie . . . then what's to say that I will not just be standing in vain.
I really feel that he is trying to balance us both.
That's seems to be the trick for him.
When asked to choose between us . . . he chooses her.
Well if that's the case then so be it.
But I want to know so that I can pick up my peices and move on.
I am more than willing to face a NO CONTACT of a month or two . . if it will help. If I will be loving him from this distance. . . . and he is just moving on because "I don't love him anymore and refuse to talk to him" then what?
Also . . . what do I do if he calls? Just tell him I can't talk . . . or do I tell him I won't talk?
