Emily, I challenge you to name one way that a divorce will make your life easier. The only reason you want it is so you can find another man to attach yourself to and make you feel loved ... and then we'll go through all of this again.
If you really wanted to get better, you'd take our advice and not talk to Kevin for a while, but you don't want to change or really improve your life.
Emily, you still haven't gotten your driver's license. Why? You need to do the things that will give you the life you want, and you need to take responsibility for your own life, instead of playing this little game that your life has been ruined by Kevin.
The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth." (Psalm 145:18)