Quote: Just one question: If you had money, would you still think that the girls are better off with Kevin? You're bringing so many things up, it's hard to tell what the main problem here is. Would you still feel this way if you had the money to get the things you need for the next few months? NOT FOR A SECOND. If I was pulling the money he is right now, I would KNOW they are better off with me. But I am not. He's single and "rich" in my eyes . . and I have two kids and I am totally scraping the bottom of the barrel!
Amy you said something about being bounced from sitter to sitter. That's all I can offer them. As soon as I get a job I will never be home with them . . . they'll always be with someone because I am a single mom, it's not like they'll even get to be with their daddy. I just thought that it would also be less painful than me having to watch them miss me all the time. That's A LOT of the problem I had with my mother. She went right back to work after they adopted me. I remember bawling all day at the sitters and feeling so unwanted because my mom wasn't there for me . . . she left me 5 days out of the 7. I don't want my girls to feel that way about me because of the position their father has put me in. I hate him sooo much. Pure hate.
I am already recieving ALL the assistance (cash, med, food) and I also live in the freakin low income (lower rent but you pay all utilities and such (nicest apartments in town )) Oh and Frank . . . my grandmother runs the foodbank . . so I get many a hand outs
I just wanted to say thank you all, thanks so much. I haven't heard from him yet . . . . maybe he doesn't care at all. I just don't think I can keep these girls though . . . emotional, physically or in any other way. I just . . feel . . . so bad. . . I don't even know what else I was going to say . . but I have to get going, I'll be on more later. . .
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