Do NOT act like it's not ripping my heart out. I know the way I feel. I certainly don't feel capable . . . They are better off anywhere but with me!
Quote: AND HOW THE HELL CAN YOU POSSIBLY THINK OF DOING THAT TO KIYA & FELINA AFTER THE FEELINGS YOU HAVE STRUGGLED WITH OVER BEING ADOPTED?? I UNDERSTAND why I was put up now. This has been an eye opening time in my life. I see the reasoning. I understand that my mother did what was best. My life with her would have been hell. I cannot provide anything for Kiya and Felina . . . KIYA DOESN'T KNOW HER FATHER SO IT WOULD BE THE SAME THING. FELINA BARELY KNOWS HIM. I know . . . but they would forget me. Felina's only two. . . she would grow to love another as her mother. If that happens to be Cassie . . so be it. They would know him. They would have a better life with him. Kiya would never know the difference. The change over would be a little tough on Felina . . . but it's the best I can offer her.
