Thanks . . I've hit the lowest spot I've ever been in my life.
I'm going to call my H and tell him I'll sign his divorce papers (he didn't file because he wants to do it online and they told him if boths parties won't just sign then they cannot do it for him and he'll have to go with a lawyer and court and all that jazz) . . . but I want HIM to take the girls.
I can't even find a job . . . I've been looking. I don't want to have to leave my sick 2 month old at all . . . but. . . I cannot continue to live the way I have been. He actually has money now and they deserve that. Maybe . . . Oh God . . my poor babies. I just don't feel like I can do any of this anymore. I cry all the time. I feel so bad for Felina. At least Cassie would be happy. . . maybe the girls would be better off. I just don't feel up to one more day . . . not one . . .
