Every other week . . . I am come here and say that I am through . . . and something always seems to keep my standing. But I cannot continue any longer. I thank you all for your heart felt answers . . . for all the harsh truths . . and for never judging me for wanting my H back. Thank you for being the best support system I could have ever asked for. You got me through the hardest parts. But I am defeated. I know when to throw in the towel. It's time. He is just trying to keep Cassie and I both . . . I will not allow it. So . . . my marriage is over.
He never called lastnight as he PROMISED he would. When I gave him a ring this morning to see if he was still coming up to visit . . . his phone was shut off. Which is only important because he NEVER shuts the damn thing off . . unless he's with her. So . . . I am not stupid. I cannot continue to allow him to have his cake and eat it to. When I get his support money I plan to use it to file for the D. We go next week to get the support figured out . . . so it should be in the works within a few months. Maybe by 2007 I can start over . . . Maybe . . .
Anyway . . . Thank you all so much! I wish you all the best of luck . . . and I will say many prayers for all of you fighting for your M's here on this board. God bless! Goodbye.
