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I am trying to be distant and yet let him work on fighting his way back BULLCRAP. As soon as he calls and shows the slightest sign of wanting to come back you then start calling him and starting R conversations. YOU ARE CLINGY AND WILL DRIVE HIM AWAY. .
I just feel like I am getting mixed signals No, that's wrong because as soon as he GAVE you a signal you did just as I wrote above. .
He keeps telling me, "I had made up my mind to come back to you the lasttime . . I don't know what happened and I am sorry . . . etc" Why don't you accept this and SEE WHAT HAPPENS instead of jumping right back into the middle of his sh*t!?! You have not given this man a chance. Regardless of whether or not he deserves it, which we are all pretty certain he does NOT however, in the interest of saving your family you decided to give him one (which was the right thing to do) but as soon as he comes around testing the waters you act like you want to strap a leash on him.
The problem is still your lack of self esteem...your feelings of being unworthy.
I guaran-damn-tee you that you have the opportunity to make this man LONG for YOU & HOME each time he leaves to make a run but you are instead sabotaging everything because it's STILL all about Kevin to you. It's time grow up and act like a woman that knows what she wants and how to get it.
That starts with YOU looking deeper inside yourself and coming to know that you know that you know that EMILY is worth it.