Quote: If you don't want him back, then fine - you can tell him in 24 hours, okay? But the REAL problem here is your fear of being vulnerable. You are afraid of being hurt again by him leaving again - so you are attempting to control that fear by leaving him first. Does this make any sense? It does NOT get you closer to your goals.
You are dead on point. I am scared to DEATH!
It felt so good to see him. It felt so good to have him want to be near me. If felt good to have surprise me because he missed me. It felt natural . . . not uncomfortable. Seeing him made me remember just how much I do love him. And it scared the HELL outta me.
I already started to get slightly reattached *not a lot . . but I'm not zero attached now* . . . and it scares me. It's so natural for me to trust him, but I know I can't. I'm just flat out scared . . . and I'm ready to run rather than face that fear. I know I can't, I'm trying to steel myself for the fall but I'm hoping it doesn't come. I know I'll stand here and wait . . .but the thought of leaving him is comforting some how. It's a let down on my part not his. I wouldn't have to feel that he didn't love him . . etc etc. I'm just plain scared.
