This isn't working for me.
Not at all.

I'm so distrusting and angry with him.
Like I was just on the phone with him briefly and he got another call . . . . and then a few minutes later he "had to go"
It's pretty suspicious!
I can't trust him.
I know it's pushing him away . . . but I don't want to get hurt again.
I'm sick of running in second when not only should I be first I should be only.

I'm tired of the damn tailspin.
I'm just going to call . . . pray I get the VM and tell him I can't do this.
I can't trust him . . . I'm falling for him again and I don't want to.
I DO love him . . . but he and I just aren't right for each other anymore.
It's time for it to end.
It's been over. . . .