Quote: I'm surprised you even have a choice - in my state, if you are on assistance, the state WILL go after the father for support - they want to recoup their expenses! I'm surprised your state is not mAKING you file for child support.
That's the only reason there's a support order out on him.
Because they did make me file, because when he "left" in May . . in order to keep my apartment I needed the assistance.
I'm sick and tired of being on it . . . once I start getting money from him I'll be able to drop it.
Don't worry Amy . . my hands are TOTALLY tied. It's not an option to drop it. Unless I were to tell them all that we are reconciled. But that screws me cause if he runs again *with lets face it . . it WILL happen* . I will be up sh*t creek without a paddle. I wish I could even half way rely on him to take care of the girls . . . but I can't.
He's given me NOTHING since Kiya was born, kml.
I think he might have given me a total of MAYBE $300.00 in an 9 months span!
Not that you didn't already know this but that's because ferrets LOVE temps in like the 50's or 60's (it's about what the temp would be in the wild . . down in there holes!) I had a ferret! . . His name was Rosco . . . he was a cutie!
LOL! You've got me beat by a dollar! I don't get paid again until the 5th either . . . DAMN . . . I hope my H does come home this week and share some of the $2000.00 + dollars he was telling me he currently has in his checking account!
Amy if you thought that last song was bad . . . try on this one for size
Quote: And if I couldnt attain All I need to explain Would she even look me in the eye again She sits back and ignores My need to adore Intimidations got me down again Shes only 18 But such a beautiful dream All she needs is some chloroform and she'll be mine
CHORUS:Chloroform the one, the one that you love And take her back
Every once in a while I catch a strut and a smile Maybe rejection is the high that keeps me coming here I need some compassion But shes laughing the nervousness I feel whenever she is around And I cant see Just how real is the charm No I dont mean her no harm Despite my heart And the challenge while shes lying here
(chorus)
So just walk on by I can see today is like any other day But it seems brighter than it was before I just cant believe that its not the same No its not the same It will never be the same for me again
(chorus)
That's "Chloroform" or "Chloroform The One You Love" by Flickerstick.
Kiya had her "hearing test" yesterday morning. It took FOREVER and they still couldn't get ANYTHING. She was "too noisy" cause she wouldn't go to sleep. Yeah . . . so I don't know exactly where we go for here. By the time I got home . . . I chilled out for a minute . . then my friend came down and hung out. By the time she left I went to bed.
BUT . . . I have a HUGE update.
Tuesday I had talked to my H . . . left a message saying I was tired of feeling insulted because he NEVER even called to say he was OK . . etc. . . and I wasn't going to continue to be his OW . . I was letting him go etc. . . He called right back . . said he was driving but PROMISED (his new thing is he WILL NOT break a promise or I can leave him) he'd call as soon as he shut down Tuesday night (sometime between 9:30 and 10:00) Well I waited and waited . . . 10:30 rolled around . . . I went downstairs and set the answering machine message just to say, "Thanks for keeping that promise. Good bye." I wasn't going to pick up. I figured he was talking to her and ran over or something. So . . . . around 10:40 . . . I hear someone coming up the stairs in my place. I look up and BOOM it's my H. He was routed to Canada and he changed the route a little to spend the night with me. AWWWWWWWWWW . . it was sweet. So we stayed up and chatted and such. . . then he left Wednesday morning around 7:30 to head up to Canada. He's still suppose to be coming home this weekend (hey he promised . . )
It was the first real step he's taken. Before he wouldn't have done that. He said as soon as he got the load he decided to stop through. . . he was going to call me from across town where he parked the truck and ask me to smoke with him (I.E. I go out and have a smoke while he is smoking where ever he is. Sounds silly . . . but it's like a tradition.) and then RUN across town and meet me outside. But his phone wasn't recieving service.
My Dad saw him on Wednesday morning and I guess Kevin stopped and chatted with him for a little bit . . . my Dad said he showed him his CDL and was just so proud. He even said, "Kevin looks good." My Dad really doesn't harbor hard feelings. It's the rest of my family that will be REALLY angry if/when I tell them we are going to work on things. NO ONE KNOWS YET. Not even my friends. . . I'm a coward.
Anywho . . . it was interesting to say the least.
So . . . that was my Tuesday night and Wednesday. Now we'll see where it goes from here . . .
I had a ferret! . . His name was Rosco . . . he was a cutie! 
