Ouch, I stubbed my toe!

[NNP1965]

The last few days have been very difficult and I have been questioning my ability to continue to charade. H is very unhappy in his work and has been very short tempered with the kids and myself.

Last night I went up to bed first and he said he was right behind, well I dozed off and awoke to the news saying that it was going to frost and H was not in bed...

I ran downstairs to bring my plants in off the screen porch and H was on the computer. I guess I came down so fast he did not have time to close the screen and I saw that he was in the game site that he used to LIVE in. He had not been going there at all for quite a while. Now I feel like he is slipping back in to that place.

I was so shocked to see him in there I did not say a word, just turned around and went to get my plants. He immediately got off the computer and went upstairs to bed. I followed and was shaking not sure whether to say anything or not. I did not and he was asleep in a few minutes.

It took me quite a while to fall asleep but after I did at some point he reached for me and in my groggy state I said "I love you" and without missing a beat he said "I love you too". Of course he was not awake... but I have to say it was soooooo good to hear those words, even if he did not know he was saying them.