Ouch, I stubbed my toe!

[NNP1965]

I am still here. I am going to counseling every Thursday afternoon and my only regret is not starting that years and years ago!

As for H and I, I do not know what will happen. Sometimes I find myself questioning how can I value myself and stay with a man who has no love or respect for me. Will I be okay living the rest of my life never hearing the words "I love you" or worse never feeling loved by my H?

After on Sat afternoon I realized he has no emotional connection to me during sex at all. It is purely a physical release to him. No wonder he is perfectly happy in his cyber world of no attachment and no commitment and instant gratification.

On another note: Last night I watched the movie about Johnny Cash and June Carter. I WALK THE LINE, I think it is called. All I could think is this it was supposed to be a wonderful love story, but I just wanted to vomit. The way he was pursuing June while still married to his first wife (the mother of his 4 daughters).

Note to self, no more movies!

I will try and get caught up on everyone else today. Hopefully there will be some good news here from someone. I have high hopes for Matilda... heading to her thread now.