Ouch, I stubbed my toe!

[NNP1965]

Wow! I have been posting here for over a year and this is the first time a thread locked on me.

Locked thread

H & I are in our 40's
we have two boys 12 and 10
married 17 years.

Basically my H is addicted to porn and (I believe) possibly tetering on the edge of taking his cyber cheating to the next level. I believe he thinks I am totally in the dark about all of this.

I am living in a fantasy world pretending that none of this is happening and the only way that I know it is happening is thru snooping. Which I have stopped (but it is a struggle everyday to keep myself from peeking).

I am now in counseling trying to deal with my own issues of childhood abuse and forced family secrets. Which is why I have not been able to address any of this with my H. I have also begun going to Al-Anon, because I am the Adult Child of an Alcoholic.