I appreciate very much your straight talk with me. And all the others here as well. It is hard to hear the words deception and falsehood attached to myself. Maybe that is a big problem I need to deal with. I tend to stick my head in the sand when I come face to face with my bad side. Perhaps it is a FOO issue. As a child I learned that when I did something wrong, there was always SEVERE punishment attached to it if discovered. So I learned to hide and hide well, even lying to myself to help prevent discovery under interrogation. I'm thinking the "dodginess" you are picking up on is probably me not wanting to be honest with myself, even for a mistake in the past, albeit recent past. I'll have to work on that so that I always move through my problems instead of around them.
"Please, drop the drama."
I'm afraid that is going to be a tough one for me. Intense emotional responses are not an act for me. It is yet another thing I have to learn how to control effectively, but I doubt it will ever go away.
"it does perhaps take you beyond the scope of the forum. I personally think that you need to work with someone who is apprised of the complete truth."
You are right. I apologize for setting up "strawmen" on this forum and wasting people's time. It was not my intent to do so, just more avoidance on my part I guess.
I should have taken my own advice more seriously. I need to take care of myself and my family, and that isn't going to happen here under the present circumstances.
Sorry again everyone
Chrome
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
