I've tried to distract myself from feeling this way. I'd forgotten how much it hurts, especially the inescapable fact that it was me who did it all. I was just hoping that maybe here would be a place where I could talk about moving forward, being the kind of person I need to be, how I should have been all along. I can never be the true alpha male, because I have forever soiled my integrity. But I can try to be the best person I can be and work towards the best life I can provide for my W and kids.
I'm sorry again I betrayed you all.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
