hello GEL Thank you for your honestly. WHat is a IC? Let me tell you a little about we have three children and I work and go to school. I do need to leave but I really dont have anywhere to go. I have family but they dont have any room for me and my three. I am going to either ask him to leave or find me another place of my own. I have allow him to mistreat me for so long that I am used to it and i dont even cry about it anymore. I feel like I am numb and I do want to get out of it. But I have to stop bieng so lonely and finally just do it. In the past I have been upset for a little while the longest 1month. Out of loneliness I feel insecure. I it sounds pitfull especially when I write it and read it back to myself. I havent told my family b/c I am so embrassed but I know if I told them they would help me I guess I am just trying to get my own self together? Thanks for you advice GEL, LC and all the other who responded back.