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[meanmydogs]

I need some advice, CD (chipdick) has lost the plot!!!

A few nights ago I got a call from CDs sister, he,s been unwell with his nerves for the last few years, but nothing major I dont think, but on this particular night he was behaving really irrational and depressed, and his sister was worried so she rang his Friend who he,d been on Holiday with recently. His Friend told her he,d been like that in Spain too, and that at one point they had to pull him in from the balconey because he was going to jump off, and another night they had to call a Doctor to him because he had taken pills and drank a lot, Im not sure of all the details

The night she called me, he had been in a state and when she went to see what he was doing in their garage, he had set up a hosepipe to the exhaust She called an ambulance because she didnt know what else to do, even though he hadnt yet done anything, and the Police. They took him into the house and calmed him down, but he was crying a lot and he ended up going into Hospital for the night. Theyve said they are going to arrange councelling for him and he,s been put on A.D and Diazepam. She called me to say he had gone in, and that he wanted me to go to see him. It was late at night, and I said if he was still there the next day, Id go then, because I didnt really know what good me going there at 1 in the morning would do.

Anyway, he came out the next day, so I didnt go see him at all. I didnt hear anything. 2 days ago he came here and started begging me to get back with him, saying he cant do this anymore etc etc, cant live with himself, things like that. He was crying a lot, and I admit I felt sorry for him, he,s made such a mess of his life this last few years. I talked to him for a little while, but I said him coming back after all thats happened wasnt an option, I couldnt trust him etc, he lied all the time, did some terrible things to all of us, but that I would help him if I could ( I know, after all he,s done to me, but I cant see anyone genuinly hurting like that, and do nothing!) as a Friend, nothing else.

Last night at gone 2 am my phone goes, its him,he,s across the road in the house. He wants to come over but I said no because the dogs will bark so I went over there. He was in SUCH a state. I couldnt believe it. He was hyper-ventilating, panicking, crying, the lot. He was begging me again to have him back, said he,d do anything, move anywhere, do whatever it takes. He said we could either take the house off the market and move in there, or buy somewhere else and have a fresh start where no-one knows us, or even live here, whatever I want to do. It was horrible to see, at one point he was actually on his knees and I was getting upset, Ive never seen him like that before. He ended up here sleeping on the sofa because I couldnt let him drive off like that.

Ive just got an e.mail from him now, saying much the same thing as he said last night, and saying he,ll never be able to live with himself or forgive himself for all he,s put us through, how muchhe loves me etc etc and that he doesnt blame me for hating him, but he would rather be dead than pretend he,s living, because his life is over without me anyway.

I havny replied, because I dont know what to say!! How do I deal with someone like this? Its such a shock, this isnt like him at all and I dont know what to do. I dont know if this is emotional blackmail, or if he is really having a breakdown, it didnt seem like he was acting and he just seems so desperate. Im afraid that if I dont help him, he,ll do something. I just dont know what to do though. help???

mea.xxxxxxxxx

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