The big fight we had the other night has now turned into "assault and battery" charges against me. She got a restraining order for the week too. The police came to my office and took me away in handcuffs. I'm not allowed ANY contact with W for 1 week. Go to court on 11/15.
Apparently "unwanted touching" is all that's needed to press charges. I held her wrists and hands when I was trying to talk to her about everything and she wanted loose quicker than I did. I also tried to talk in the bedroom and was blocking the door for like 1 miunute trying to talk.
She locked herself in guest room. I tried the door saw it was locked and left her alone. She didn't do anything until the next morning, after I left for work.
Please pray for me and my family. I have been spending time at my parents (w/ s7 this weekend so at least that's good) and at a friend's house. He is getting a divorce, packing up his 3 kids stuff so the house can be sold at the end of the month. I'm helping a bit. Depressing.
At least W did let my parents get some of my things and my medicines. I got a lawyer on Friday. I'm am SO forced into her divirce now. I was trying to discuss future? of R and now I'm a criminal... crap!
She spent weekend blogging it up. Posting on myspace. Went to our yearly neighborhood block party alone. Invited her myspace buddies back to our place for jello shooters and kareoke. Went to brunch with her myspace friends today. They posted pics of themselves having fun and talking all about their gel bras and thongs from Victoria's secret.
I went to church. Played music there, prayed as hard as ever and just a little bit ago I was crying while helping my friend pack his kids toys and pictures away. His middle girl D7 comes in crying. "Daddy do we have to move?" She is also concerned about switching neghborhoods and schools.
All this to look forward to. not. Dark damn days. I am such a freekin IDIOT for touching her at all. I have NEVER hit her or been violent. Arguments and yelling yes, but physical stuff no. Hitting a door or wall (in the past! mind you) yes. But hitting people NO. She knows this too. I feel like such a damn SUCKER now. I have an anger problem and know it. She does too and and I guess I played right into her little trap.
Well, at least I already made a MC appt, just for me. Need to talk. Goodnight guys.
