W is cracking a little under the guilt I guess. I have not said ILY at all since 8/18, except yesterday morning on the way to work I said, "tell S7 IL Him". She looked a little funny as I left and said, "you know "ILY too, you know". I just said I know and walked away.
That, to me, is one of the hardest parts of detaching. NOT saying ILY. We used to always say it. I'd always add an "Lu2" or whatever on my IM's to her. I made a point to never leave without saying ILY. crap.
Anyhoo... yesterday I get an IM at work from W, who says she needs to talk. I said to call my cell. I went outside, for privacy. She is almost crying and says The OM's Mom asked if I had been snooping in her purse. (?? huh ??) and OM's Mom wants us to see the pastor. They had talked to him after a death in the family and he helped. I do not feel comfortable talking sex and relationships with the pastor who I see in church 2 and 3 times a week! Also her MC appt is today.
So I ask if she has to see the pastor can't we talk at home. So at home last night she "confesses" to the condoms and panties in the purse, but has some weird story about it. She claims "after a "fight" the other day (there wasn't one, Thurs I cryed after seeing the "D list") I went out and bought them and was going to use them. But got cold feet and stopped on the highway and was crying and a motorist assistant comes up, and whatever..." Another story for the panties... Then long pause and "well that's it, my bucket's empty"
No real info about OM and PA.
She could barely stand playing a simple board game w/ me and S7 last night. H asked her to play too and was exicted to see us doing anything together, and was a little roudy I guess. I thought it was cute, ya know?
She was constantly crabbing at him the whole time. It was like she couldn't wait to get away back to the computer and cell phone. It was really hard to watch.
So I got S ready for bed and we read, prayed, and snuggled a little. He said "Mom didn't even say Goodnight to me" kinda sad like. Man. She always tucked him in or snuggled for few before sleep.
