the "how was ML w/her "monkey is trying to get on my back again, grrrrrrrrr

wish I could have my H home during the week, it's soooo hard to work on us when is away 5 our of 7 days at the job training site. *SIGH*

OK, overall, I think we are doing alright, had a mini argument about why he had a cell phone wellllllllll before he left me and kept it hidden. It was about April when he got it (he left on Sept) and it seemed to me he was still ok with me, ML and was sweet and all. I brought it up and he refused to answer, I told him I wouldnt' have had a prob if he wanted one, why did he have to hide it.

Long story short, he says there is stuff he did that I wouldnt' like to know and that he isnt' talking, that it is better to be left alone. GRRRRRRRR, it boils me because whenever he wanted to know about something about me, ANY thing, he would hound me and ask me until I told him.
Now he's like "that is private, my stuff". Talk about double standard.

So I have learned through this trial that we each are responsible for our happiness and that we are all individuals, I also believe that when you marry you belong to your S and he/she to you, so, where do you draw the line of privacy? shouldn't I be entitled to know things, shouldnt he tell me what was going on back then?

I did agree to not talk about anything A related nor about the time he was away, but the cell phone was purchased months before he left. He said "it wans't all about you you know? I was going donwhill slowly" so I guess his MLC started at the beginning of the year.

Anywaysssssssssss, there is my rant for the day, I'm getting the book "battlefield of the mind" to help me out, will try to read it w/him, guess I need some more tinkering on this crazy brain of mine


Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2

30something
2kids
survivor of S, MLC, A, D
I have peace in my heart, at last.