Cat, I don’t know how you do it. I would have lost my mind and never found it if I was in your shoes. Maybe try and make a list of the things you want to improve upon or accomplish. This might help you organize your thoughts. Try and set goals, small ones not big ones. I found myself always trying to do big things trying to make a difference. I started doing smaller things but still had my heart behind them, I still did big things but not as often. Try not to dwell on the past too much, easier said than done, always keep it in mind but not the only thing on your mind. Start looking towards the future.
In the immortal works of Rik Emmett “The days seem shorter and the night are getting long, feels like were running out of time, every day it seems much harder telling right from wrong you have to read between the lines.”