ImLin, thanks so much, he did say he thought I'd leave if he mentioned the PA. (the flowers were sent for her b-day).
I guess looking back at last yr right after he left, yes, we've made huge progress. I hope I can find it in my heart to hold his hand again, to initiate sx, I do love him and what we had was great, too bad he can't think that far back, he can't remember how it used to be when we were happy.
That's some debt Im, wow, hopefully we can all get rid of it in a reasonable amount of time.
Thanks so much for coming to my rescue, I do love him and want us to work. It is getting better, sort of, I'm glad he agreed to see the C tomorrow on his own, maybe next time we'll meet together at MC.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.