All Hell broke loose, found out EA was PA

[cat03]

thanks gals wish I would've read this yesterday. Another blowout yesterday on the phone, because a. Iwasn't sure I believed him when he said he got himself tested for STD and b. I wanted to make a timeline (yes, I'm stupid) of how long they were intimate-- I pushed to know when he went to get tested.

Long story short it was horrible, he got defensive, didnt' think his med history was any of my business (turns out he went to dr for something else not sexual related, somethign he is ashamed of & didnt' want me 2 know about).
I see now why he refused to give me a date so I could check, but I pushed & pushed, things were said, he told me how my bringing this stuff up didnt' make it possible 4 him to find his feelings for me.
In the end he said that if I wanted he'd get tested again Monday to show me he really has nothing. I'm still breaking my head as of why he just can't prove to me he went to a clinic if he knows 100% he has nothing. Could there be any other reasons? I don't know, I don't know anymore.
Thank heaven I'm seing C tonight. I did texted H afte our phone convo and appologized for pushing so much and for hurting him w/my proding.
Guess he still was getting over OP when he was back & that's why he sent her flowers, just wished he'd say so instead of lying and telling me he had no idea where the charge came from (the cc charge for flowers)

Let's make it back to square -10, I don't even feel like reaching out to him anymore, to be affectionate, hope that changes soon.

H&H, Ididn't want to prod, I couldnt' find all your posts but did learned about OP on your case, I'm sorry honey, thanks for supporting me, it means a lot to me)))))))))

BI, that verse is right on for me, I'm loosing sight of what I really want in my life. He told me he can't console me because he himself is still lost, so that's why my grief is evern greater. I'll come to whine here and will work hard at doing my damnest to be a forgiving wife at home.