In this crazy ordeal every time I think the sitch has slipped, I seem to gain some ground. Every time I say to myself its time to move on we have a conversation that gives me hope. My W knows that I am not giving up and i think that has got to her a little bit. She has told me she loves me again. A week ago it was the opposite and she didn't love me and could never love me again. Now its back to the I love you but not in love. AMAZING!!! It is a huge change in my eyes. I told her tonight that I am not giving up and I will fight for us. She said she knew that and that I was fighting harder than she could believe. The conversations we are having are really going somewhere. Now I'm not going to say to myself that it changes anything but I now have the confidence I need with her. Instead of anticipation and fear it is now a confident "She will be mine. Oh yes she will be mine" and she knows that I am feeling this way. I tell you that getting to that place where you can say it WILL be this way is what Dbing is for me. WOW Never say never!!! I feel like running five hundred miles!!! I am becoming a champion!!! God Bless!!!
