Well.... last nights conversation was a hard one. But it was a good one. I think we really got somewhere. Where this is though is still hard to say. She has agreed to give me another chance. I don't know for how long or if its a one night thing but she at least said yes. I got to the bottom of the whole reason she has left. She has equated the feeling of physical sexual attraction as the gauge for how much you love someone. She feels that if there isn't that oh my god sex every time it can't be true love and we can't be meant for each other. I understand that it has had a lot to do with my attitude towards the relationship and I have changed my priorities (FOR SURE!!! ). I am it seems at the final table with the last hand and all my chips are in. i dont know if she has the winning hand if I do or she is bluffing. I am going into this with hope and I know that there will either be new beginnings with her or without her. This will open doors and show me paths. We shall see which ones. If you have prayers include me in them for i have prayed for all of you and seem to need that miracle if I can get it. Lets just say I don't know about this one. WHEW anticipation is an unbelievable feeling when paired with fear. God Bless