I think my wife has the ability to convince all her friends I am an a hole and that is fine. With each paycheck she doesn't completely spend I feel better and better about myself. All the faults she contributed to her unhapiness are suddenly becoming clearly hers. Everything she said I did to make her unhappy in the last three years seem to have gone away on my end and are still showing up at her place. She is stressed. She is broke. Yet she is happy and content to spend the rest of her life ina an appartment. I am happy. I see the path widening for me now. I understand that I will always be a part of her life because she can't forget the time we had. The chldren will not disappear if we get divorced. I will know that the mistakes I made were innocent and a simple lack of knowledge as to how mariage works. I don't have the guilt of an affair to bring me down and my fantasy won't come crashing down around me. I am at the point in my life when the burden of living could be more than I could bear and I have shown that I could rise above. I am sorry that my wife will not see this. She has lost herself in the proud and stubborn way of the WAW. I pray that she is as happy as she claims. My goodness this sermon has been uplifting for me and I hope that everyone who has the opportunity to read itunderstands that true happiness comes from WITHIN. Life is always moving forward and you can go with it or stay put but the flow will forever tug at you to move. My God you should move. Moving forward doesnt always mean moving away because life pulls us all along. Some resist more than others but they may catch up eventually. Should I stop yet? Do I have anytihng else to say? Of course but I will just say GOD Bless and be champions. "Be the change you want to see happen" Ghandi " The Sleeper has awoken!" Paul Attreides (Dune)
