Hi Benwa, Willmakeitthru is right. Don't make the romantic gestures, she is not going to rush back into your arms over a flower a day. In fact, it will probably irritate the hell out of her, reminding her of her guilt etc. That's no formula for success. Just stick to your present plan. It's amazing how we become such romantic animals when it's too late! Include me, in that count. The thought of losing someone you love so dearly brings all that out in us. I remember writing my wife poems early after the bomb. My feelings just oozed out of me and went down on the paper. I could actually write poems, some quite beautiful! I wanted to share my excitement and joy at my new discovery with the object of my desires. Her response was zippo!! Not a word, just stuck em in a binder. I stopped. I still write, but for me. You be for you right now.
