I just got back from a trip to the zoo with my W and kids. She was very pleasant and we had fun. I felt very happy to be with her but also very sad. I really wanted to touch her and hold her and kiss her and say i love her but I held it back. I laughed with her and the kids. She talked about how broke she is. I just said oh yeah? I thought if you wanted to work with me on this marriage I have plenty of money now. i did feel that it was a big step in the right direction. I tried to act as if I was her good friend and am praying now that it showed. i am really bummed now. I want to be with her forever you know. Small things are big steps on an unknown path with an unclear end. I sure appreciate the posts and encouragement THANKS! God Bless
