Well, I'm on the road to be a WAW, and I apologize to everyone here for throwing out false hope in my sitch. We just cannot (will not?) climb this mountain in front of us. I am so sad today I can't stop crying. But, rightly or wrongly, SOMETHING is going to change finally. I just wish I had better news. I'm not much of a Stander, I only have about 11.5 months into this sitch. It is just too much for me, and this cycling is getting nowhere. My M may be over, but I know I will take the positive changes and use them. For that I cannot be anything but thankful.
Our MC session was me weeping and alternately cussin' mad. H says he doesn't want to separate but is not willing to change what I ask, anything but. And that's my dealbreaker. I just can't blame him anymore. It was half my fault for our M failing and getting to him having an A. We're just unable/unwilling to recover properly. I really admire everyone here, and in Piecing, for their strength thru such a miserable-soul time. I mostly feel I've let people here down, but I'm tired of so much pain and so little progress.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
