Met with MC this week - thank GOD for her, I always feel better when we go even if it all goes to hell the minute we leave - and hammered out more feelings, etc. Still have the Action Plan, but since we only did ONE out of five/H feels like those are all things HE has to do and therefore unconsiously resistant (or something), we are going to concentrate on ONE at a time. The one thing we DID do was spend time together as a family. This is actually not as lame as it sounds b/c in our former life we would just pass the kids off to each other and have happy memories with the kids SEPARATELY. This way were creating memories as a whole, and that's good. But we did ZIP on the list past that.
C said that our first priority is to be praying together daily and that's her one thing we HAVE to be doing. H owned the fact that he dropped the ball on that and he really wanted to. He's the perfect H in counseling, NOT that he's insincere but more like he's his best self. He did acknowledge some very real changes in our interaction post-A, such as me not fighting/bucking him on every little thing/opinion he has, and that my general contentious nature has disappeared (which it has) - so that was nice to be acknowledged.
And then we leave and life and busy-ness get in the way of our intentions. Ya'll know.
Um. it's been 3 days since MC and there's not been one community prayer here. My 180s have included NOT nagging him about stuff like that, so I don't -but I may mention it today in passing. We meet with her again on Thursday.
I posted something on the blog that H wrote back in May of this year (on his own, now defunct, blog - his stupid f*cked up parents would read his stuff and then critique him about it. Ugh. He quit writing on it, obviously) that I thought was a really good piece of writing. Anyway it's here if you'd like to see.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
