OMGosh, ya'll, I've been wandering around other people's threads and had no idea there were any posts on mine since I've been away a while. Just this week really; working so much (yawn) - day shifts, night shifts, overtime - was going to watch a DVD with H tonight and just crashed hard around 6pm, and came to bed instead. Woke up briefly and thought I'd check in with ya'll.

Found myself quoted on Mamabear's new thread in Piecing, and posted to her, and here's what I said there:

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I struggle MIGHTILY in my feeling of being OWED a good R by my H. We had a talk/discussion/argument/cry(me) today - started on one topic and just bled into all the others - and I cannot stand how he will state one of his needs, or disappointments, or some place where he is not getting something from me, and I will TURN IT AROUND immediately and state how I'm not getting something either. How it always has to be ABOUT ME. ugh.

Oh, I'll go post this mess on my own thread, and should probably move over here from Infidelity soon anyway. But Mama, piecing is SO much harder than fighting for your M, IMHO. I think GH said it well once, b/c he pointed out that in the middle of the A, you have a GOAL that is tangible and you are fighting against it, and also FOR your marriage and now this Piecing requires you not to FIGHT so much as to STAND STILL and wait, in terms of the R moving at its own pace. And all of us hate that waiting thing, b/c hello? they were out of the gate like a horse when it came to OW/M, so let's get cracking in the M. It's just not the same, and it's a lesson in grace and patience that I wish I wasn't having to learn (and relearn) every day.



More on that 'discussion' today when my head is not pounding from fatigue. I think about you guys even when I'm not here. Ya'll should work in a hospital - it does help me put my life in perspective every day, when I see some of the things people have to deal with. (i.e 3 small sisters killed in a house fire
) We don't have any problems when you look at things like that

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19

If it seems slow in coming, wait.
It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3

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