Always, thank you for your insight. I am still attached like a Siamese-freaking-twin to the outcome, I'm noticing. I haven't dropped the rope worth a flip, and am still in What's In It for Me Mode, I think, on a very basic level. Still working thru that idea, what it means, and what the heck I plan to do about it.
I need to be supportive and not so fcuking DISAPPOINTED in what I am not getting from my H. That hangs like a black cloud over the atmosphere of this house and it's UP TO ME TO CHANGE THAT, not to wait for some happy pill to descend upon the home for me to get over my disappointment and ENTITLEMENT feelings. Which is somewhat understandable, but one hell of a cheesless tunnel here.
Slowly posted this on Sven the Red's thread a few months back (in Piecing) and it's true true true, people:
Quote: While we are DBing in ernest, progress (or developments anyway) seem to happen almost on a daily basis, and the good and bad are quite obvious.
Once we are Piecing, changes are far more subtle, but perhaps more sustained? And the LBS who has been doing most of the heavy lifting is left to wonder, when is the acknowledgement and return on effort going to be evident? And I think it really is up to us to re-frame what develops as the return we have been looking for.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
