Believing, you and i could be reflections of each other. I read on your blog your issues from your past, your needs, physical expectations and experiences, and I share those same issues/needs. H and I are also switched in the usual gender roles. You mentioned on your blog about reflecting on your past-- what have you come up with? Have you learned to deal with/control your issues/needs? I'm curious, as now that i'm "separated" and H is pushing for the D, i'm being bombarded by longings and opportunities that i'm trying to fight. It's such a battle! when you feel so rejected, and you crave someone to just put their arm around you.... Did you find it hard to trust men? Assume that they really only wanted sex, so all their talk of love was aimed towards that one thing; that they didn't really mean what they said? that you didn't really deserve that kind of devotion, so therefore, they had to be lying? and, having given your trust finally to one man (your H) and then he goes and has an affair (and, in my case, wants a divorce), this just confirms what you really knew all along but were stupid enough to fall for. Do you relate to that?
sorry to hijack this, but i wanted to ask you. I'll post same on my thread. jacqm
