BI - please pick up "What Happy People Know" by Dan Baker. This book changed my life, and I am going to read it many times over.
Basically, your perspective on life and your situation is your own. It's your choice to view it as good, bad, non-existant, omni-present, etc. Or, at the very least, it's up to you to judge the facts and events as you will. It seems you are pessimistic right now. Change this. The best way to do so is to appreciate something whenever you are down. Appreciate the opportunity to be down if you have to. It WILL change your experience, and we all know that if you change so will the R. Try it - work on this discipline for yourself. Oh yeah, pick up that book too!
“No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it. ” – Albert Einstein