No hijacking please

[cinemanymph]

I think you're right Corri, I don't feel safe. I censor a lot of what I say and do. I frequently dumb down my conversation because H is intimidated by words he doesn't know the meaning of.

I was watching "The Big Lebowski" and relized that the character Walter, played by John Goodman, is the big screen version of my H. Goodman uncannily replicated my H's reaction to anything he doesn't like. If you haven't seen it check it out here. If you have, you will get a sense of having a disagreement with my H. There is no being heard no matter what point(s) I have to make.

My friends tell me to leave him, but where would I go? I have no siblings, no parents, no in-laws, no marketable skills. The only family member I have, my grandmother, depends on me. It looks like I am stuck with this situation until my children are grown. And you bet your bippy that if things don't improve, I'll be out of here faster than you can say divorce lawyer. Until then, I will do my best to make the best of the sitch.