JSD, So what do you get for an answer on why the divorce or was that a question your asking yourself, not stbxw? For me I'm not so much dying inside as dissolutioned overall. Having a marriage break up and not be with the person you've been with your whole adult life is like find out there is no Santa Claus for grown-ups. Can never get that innocence about partnerships back. Have had the opportunity to ask questions but after the D just didn't seem as important as before. Have read a lot of R books that have filled in a lot of the blanks, besides who knows if she'd be lying or not anyway at this point?
The other part is that it all seemed so natural the first time around, things just happened without thinking about them. Just need to give things time I suppose. A lot will ride on her decision about what to do for the holidays, still haven't heard back yet and think will contact tomorrow if nothing by then.
Wish I had some good advice for you JSD but I'm on the same track that have to wait and see where it leads. Hang in there is about the best I can give you for now.
Am ready to finally settle down in one place, just need to figure out where that should be since no place is really "home" anymore. Any suggestions out there?
