Well nothing to update about my H. Contact is still at zero, maybe he's really done this time even though he never called and told me ANYTHING. That really frustraights me!

So . . . my Dad went to the ER at some point lastnight. He's still there this morning. They are doing an EKG and MRI.
I guess he was going to let the dog out and he just collasped in the kitchen. He has 14 or 15 stitches in his lip. Last update I got he was real dizzy and was having trouble staying awake.
They still didn't know what had caused it or what was wrong now. But since he has high blood pressure and is over 60 they want to make sure before they send him home.

My family seems to be falling apart at every seam in can find. We must just be sickly. . . . Supposed to be kind of a joke.

So that's what's going on today.
I am still trying to find that line Amy . . . I still really feel like just walking away and saying F-U pal . . .
hmmmmm . . . . and yet I wish he'd call and let me know what happened.
I am REALLY angry at him about TOTALLY missing Felina's b-day. Not a card or a note or ANYTHING.
So I'm hoping that I won't have to send her a card with some money in it and her Dad's name tacked to the bottom until she's old enough to just realize he's a shmuck and it's not that he doesn't love her.

I just feel ready to fight him because I will NOT allow him to hurt my girls. I feel like he is gunning for them emotionally. Until he shows them some SHRED of respect he's done . . . . in all books included theirs.
When he grows up and can keep a steady feeling . . then I'll allow him in their lives. Until then it'll be too many ups and downs.
I'm not allowing that to happen. He's the only thing keeping himself out of their lives . . it has nothing to do with me really.
When they get older and get mad at me for keeping their emotion intact I'll completely understand and cross that bridge when it comes.
Until then I am looking out for their best interest and as long as he stays on his current "warpath" those interests do not lay with him.
This is a branch of the high road I think. . . . maybe not but it feels like it.
I am more than willing to let him see them . . . once he gets his head straight . . . which it isn't right now.
You all know that.

Am I in the clear here . . or are ya gonna start the yelling?