Quote: I think there is a place, a line, where you could stand for your marriage and work on yourself while he's off pissin' in the wind not appreciating you OR your efforts....
He won't let me find that line. I am just a yo-yo to him, a toy. I don't think he really loves me anymore. I just think he likes that I sit and wait . . . I think he likes having two women. It makes him feel worthwhile and manly . . or SOMETHING. Makes me sick . . and it rips my heart out.
This marriage isn't worth my time anymore . . it's gone to far down the toilet. I guess I'll look around for that line Amy . . . See what I can see.
Right now I see closing that door to him as the only option . . otherwise he's just going to keep barging in and then slamming it back in my face . . . look what he's done so far. These past few times I've dropped contact . . . I stopped calling and let him go . . and he calls me crying and begging to come back . . so I say . . OK we'll work on that . . . and SLAM! right in the kisser. What's the point? You tell me (anyone) . . . is there one? What's the point of hoping against hope?
